Tires

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Detroit will never run out of tires. Tire repair shops, shops to buy new tires and places to recylcle and repurpose tires are all over this city.  Tires are also dumped around this city in abandoned lots and open spaces, creating just an ugly mess. So after a couple of days of driving through the city, my brother and I found a place where there was a plethora of tires and we took some. For a good reason of course.

We and some other folks are going to put together an exhibit of art in our neighborhood. The tires are just the first step to a great idea that we hope can change how people use and see space. What makes this even more important to me and my brother is that this clean up, this art exhibit is happening in the neighborhood we grew up in. Three blocks away from our childhood home, a block away from the schools we attended.

I was scared to just go on unknown property removing things without permission, but I have to think that what we will do with these tires are way better than what to this point, the tires were doing to the city.  Plus having my partner in crime made doing this deed a little easier.

Tires. I do see hope in you making change in the world. Starting with my neighborhood.

Did You Notice?

did-you-noticeI noticed that my neighbor’s car hadn’t moved for a couple of days. I thought he was finally taking a vacation that it seemed he needed. He is like clockwork. At 10 am everyday he is going to his car, getting in and heading, I assume, to work. I saw that this did not happen and assumed nothing major.

Yesterday, my neighbor’s brother from D.C. came by to tell me that my neighbor was in the hospital. I told my neighbor’s brother, I will keep both of them in my prayers, which I am. But I noticed and knew something before it was confirmed. We all do.

We notice when someone wants to be more than a friend with us. We notice when someone has been in our room though nothing seemed to have been touched. We notice a scene that looks like trouble. We notice when someone we love is very happy or very angry and even notice when those emotions are happening because of us. Usually, it is very small details, like an unmoved car, that tell us big stories and make us aware of what is really going on in our world.

If we honored that power of noticing things a little more; including noticing people in need or people who need love – this world could be even more amazing and definitely more loving than what we sometimes experience today.

Your Mirror

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Who is that person or persons in your life holding up the mirror to you – showing you where you look amazing and where you need some work? Most of us have several people holding up mirrors for us to see ourselves clearly, but there is always a couple of people that really get up close and personal and show us every detail of our being. Those are mirrors magnified and they are the biggest lessons in our lives sometimes.

I am pretty sure that my twin brother is one of those magnified mirrors. I take his life journey almost as personal as I take my own. Another mirror is my father. Then there are always the ex-significant others (two in particular) as well as my favorite uncle and not so favorite aunt. Until maybe the last six years or so, what I always saw in those mirrors were negative images of me. Isn't that what we use mirrors for? To see what is wrong? What needs to be fixed? Now,  I see that mirrors have a positive use. I can look into them and see the good in me; the smile, the crazy hair, the deep dark eyes and most importantly the honest and loving soul underneath all of that. I see that in my mirrors. And, I see the beauty in those that are holding those mirrors up to me. Negative and unloving thoughts kept me from seeing this stuff before. It is amazing how a change in mindset can change your life. So the mirror experience a little better and more balanced nowadays. It makes liking and loving so much easier.

Today, when you look into the eyes/mirrors of those who you love, see beyond the ugly and the negative. Look beyond what you think needs to be fixed and see the beauty that is within and even around them. See them for what they are and who they are and love them for it.

 

Decisions

shutterstock_41738281Every moment we are making decisions. Some of them are very easy. The answers come to you like breathing; no effort at all. But there are times when the decision is not clear. The “right” choice is not as obvious and you start doubting your naturally ability to make decisions. It is fear that does that. Somehow we perceive that this decision is more important than the one we made just minutes ago. If we really accepted the truth that a decision as “small” as wearing a red shirt instead of a blue shirt could have as much if not more impact on what happens in our life as saying yes or no to a new opportunity like purchasing a home, going to a particular school or taking a new job, we would probably stress all the time or not stress at all. Not sure.

I think what is important about decision making is not the decision itself, but the responsibility taken for the decision and the intent behind it. I have had to make some tough decisions in the past three years and today I am faced with more. The best thing I can do, when it is time to say yes or no is to stop, listen to my heart and follow it. Then take full responsibility for what happens after that. Decisions, decisions, decisions.

Focus

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This world seems to be filled with too much information and too many things to do. It has created a society of multi-tasking hardworking people that at times succeed at absolutely nothing. For the past three weeks, I have been one of those people.  I am doing a thousand things and none of them seem to be going anywhere.

It is a horrible feeling for someone who lives life creating. A hamster, TRAPPED on her little wheel. I need to FOCUS!  Forget all of the things that people tell me to do or things I tell myself to do and focus on the thing in front of me. The one thing that I can do well is the thing I am doing at the moment. This world has swept me up in its incessant moving, so I need to pull out my focusing tools. My first tool is meditation. It stops my mind cold and clears it for great ideas and productivity. The second tool I use is lists. Love them. If it doesn’t make it on the list, it doesn’t exist for me. The last tool for focusing is having fun everyday, whether it be by myself, with family or friends, Fun gets out of the seriousness of life. Having the less serious experiences make it easier to focus when need be.

So now that I remember my tools, let me put them back to work and get FOCUSED.

 


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Letting Go to Grow

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I am learning how to let things go. I have to do this to make room for new things. For years, things in my life were happening that I found strange and just plain crazy. But I get it now, Finally I understand that those things lead to this lesson. I must let go.

I must let go of people. This is a difficult one when you already feel you do not have enough people in your life; but I have to let go. I have to let go of fear. You don’t know how much you fear until it starts staring you in the face. I must let go of pain and worry. I must let go of beliefs that are not true. I must let go of stuff I thought meant something but doesn’t mean anything at all. I must let go of control. Control really causes the chaos in my life.

Once I let go, the life that I envision will have the space to materialize. I see that now. I know that now. I’m still freaked out, but I will let go of that too.

Failure

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The past few weeks I read a daily affirmation to get me ready for a change that is happening in my life. The weird thing about doing things like meditations, prayer, affirmation reading is that it can scare up some fear that you didn't know you had prior to committing yourself to these spiritual rituals.

One fear that kept coming up during the last month is a fear of failing at developing some of my own ideas. I found that one reason I am in the line of designing and project development is that it allows me to create and execute things; other people's things and ideas; while not failing at my own. It is a space that challenges me and keeps me safe from the big F.

Oh, but my soul, my spirit, my instinct – that little voice, not so quiet voice, kept at me and told me it was time. Time for me to leap and create for creation sake. To do it because that is what I am here for. To create because I love it. To be the artist I was always intended to be. To do this will mean living outside of the norm; even more so than I currently do. That thought, that reality has made me uncomfortable and stalled a decision I have been trying to make for a year.  And then it happened. The need to follow my spirit has grown stronger than the fear of failure and now I must move. Move to the place where I am intended to be. And that place is an artist using my voice to tell my story. FEAR…it still exist, but my fear of failure is minimal compared to my fear of not following the voice.

Devotion

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My life is changing and I know it. I want to be ready for it so, I am going into a one month devotion. A month of heavier meditation, stillness and listening to my spirit and the god within to make sure that the next steps I take and the next thing I create is of service to the world. I think that Easter is a wonderful day to make this decision.

A lot of my work and decisions in life were connected to a subconscious goal of having someone accept me and tell me that what I was doing was good and that those “good” things made me a worthy and good person. There has been deep disappointments trying to get approval in that way. I now know that I do not need approval, I just need to be. My next challenge is to do things with a less ego-centric outcome and to do them because they make me happy and make the world a little bit better.

My practice will include some drawing and painting. That is when I feel more myself and most clear. It will also include reading different scripture books, but most importantly, it will be me sitting and staying still enough to ask God or universe, how can I serve.

I think this world and each of us would be less anxious and less unhappy if we started the day being grateful for it and then asking how can I use this day to serve myself, my community and the world.

K.I.T.T. has Heart

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My brother and I have some weird conversations when we are car pooling to work. This particular day we were chatting about TV and movie remakes like Hawaii 5-0, Texas Chainsaw and Knight Rider. He and I were big Knight Rider fans as kids and I said that a movie or TV show like Knight Rider couldn’t make it today. Too many of our cars can do some of the same things that K.I.T.T (Knight Industries Three Thousand) could do; like talk and navigate and provide internal phones and video streaming. “Why would someone want to watch a show or movie about a car that does nothing more than what their own car does? What does K.I.T.T. have that my car doesn’t have?”, is what I asked my brother and he admittedly said, “K.I.T.T. has heart man, K.I.T.T. has heart.”

After a little silence, we both busted out laughing. But the truth is how many times have we watched a show, kept a book, loved a person because they had heart and character?

Creative Friday Series: March 22

I’ve been wanting to break into a different style of drawing and painting. I love my “Colorful Women” series and will always add to the series, but I need to do other things.  When this need to create something different happens to me, I always go back to gesture drawing or loose drawings. So for my Creative Friday Series, I want to share some of those drawings with you:

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I did create one Colorful Woman illustration during my loose drawing session.

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The lines we create say a lot about us and our state of mind and creativity. What do my lines say about me?