I move forward, regardless of what is going on around me, what people say or how things appear. That is how I get things accomplished. There is always a solution to all problems and roads to all visions. I keep my eyes open and ears open to hear and see where to go. It works for me time and time again. But I have my days where I crash into a wall of doubt that I didn't see coming and before I know it, I am on my ass wondering what happened and why I am doing any of this. I had a day like that yesterday.
I woke up, I prayed, thanking God and universe for everything and asking for direction and productivity in the day. We are a few days from 2017, so, I sat down and began planning for another stellar year and as I plan, something started happening. Anxiety started setting in and then just right out fear. My daily meditation usually steadies me through the day. Not yesterday. I was blocked from seeing beyond the reality that sat in front of me and that reality said, "Girl, you ain't gonna make it. How you gonna make any of this happen. You don't have…." and it went on from there. I actually welled up and when the emotions got to heavy, submitted to the reality that today, I have doubts and I do not know if I am good enough or have the strength or capacity to do any of this. Doubt exist and it happens. I think the worse part for me is not having someone to call or talk to slap me out of it.
I walked up to my studio and pulled out paper and crayons and started drawing without purpose other than to busy my mind. A couple of completed drawings done and a few hours later, I was clear enough to talk to my inner self. I told her that the vision is big and it is what we are here to complete, so we can do it. The world we live in says without knowing certain people, having certain money or other criteria, there are things that cannot be accomplished and when I hit that wall of doubt, I believed that and folded. We are again conscious and have gone over that wall of doubt and can again see the limitless resources and capacity.
Move forward, regardless of what is around me, what people say, how things appear, despite the walls in front of us.